I don’t know if this is considered “too personal” for an internet post, maybe this better belongs in a secret real-life journal that I can keep tucked away in a safe drawer, but I think a lot of people feel this way. And who doesn’t like a healthy dose of honesty?
I’ve had a lot of experience with anxiety in my life. I don’t know if it’s some predisposition I have, or if my anxious feelings are a result of the driven/perfectionist/all-or-nothing culture the US seems to radiate. Or maybe I’m simply a bit of a worry wart. Regardless, I wanted to share what some of my anxious feelings actually feel like to me.
1. A bit of a pessimist
I don’t like admitting that I see the glass half empty, but it’s true. I often find myself expecting the worst, and worrying about the thousands of ways everything can go wrong. When I have these feelings I do have to consciously remind myself to think more like an optimist, and imagine some positive outcomes as well (those exist right?).
2. Constant doubt
Did I lock the door? Did I pay my bill? Did I put my phone/wallet/keys back in my purse? I have these almost crushing feelings of doubt a lot. Thankfully they’re usually about really minuscule things, because I’m super confident about my intelligence, skills, relationships, and big life choices.
3. Nerve nerve about the new
Meeting new people, starting a new job, adopting a new pet. I think a lot of people can relate to this point, because new experiences are kind of naturally fear-inducing. When I feel really nervous about something new I always try to bring it back in to perspective and remind myself of the grand scheme of things. New things are kinda scary, but mostly really exciting.
I know a lot of people deal with these feelings. While life can seem a little overwhelming at times I’m going to try and take some deep breaths and dive right in.